Prayer for the Hopeless?

I'm really struggling. And if anyone is reading my blog; please take the time to pray for me. I need it. Bad. I'm the only one left who's still single of us 3 kids. And my relationship with God has taken a 180 back to where it was. I don't want to travel in a circle anymore. I really have a hard time buckling down and doing something. Why is that? Why can't I just read the Bible and pray everyday like I want to. I feel utterly worthless. Like what would God want with me? Why would He love me after what I've done to Him? To completely understand what I mean, listen to "Feel the Nails" by Ray Boltz. It kills me everytime.

What A Change

A lot has changed since my last post, but that's ok. I will fill you in. I'm no longer going to college. I'm waiting a year, so I can work, and save up some money to go next year... maybe. But I also decided not to go because I know that God wants to use me here and in Cameron. God has so much planned for me, and He's done so much... how could I turn my back on Him, now? I'm free to worship God with no doubts and no hesitation. God is so good to me. I just can't say it enough. I can't help praising Him.

He's Just NOT That Into You... good movie

I just finished watching "He's Just NOT That Into You." It's a wonderful movie. It's a little weird, and some of the parts aren't wholesome, but I'm encouraged by it. It made me see that hanging on to someone who will never want you... is useless. And being the rule isn't all that bad, because eventually the exception becomes the rule. (you have to watch it to understand) I'm the rule... but one day.. I will be the exception. So... Goodbye, Jordan.. It was nice knowing you. Good night and Goodbye.

College

So... I think my head is going to explode. Trying to figure out student loans for college is exhausting. I think I might just punch the next person who even thinks about mentioning student loans. On the Up side: God is in control and He will supply very need according to His riches in glory. It's tough trying to figure out how I'm going to pay for college. I wish that money grew on trees. Either that or going to college would be free. But I think that money is more likely to grow on trees. Well aside from the wishful thinking; I have to do more than just find loans, I have to buy stuff for college. Like sheets and pillows. Holli suggested that I make a list of the things I need. Good idea. Right now I have toothpaste, pencils, erasers, a pencil sharpener, notebooks, folders, two storage bins, and two towels that I bought yesterday with a $10 Kohl's giftcard that was sent in the mail. I'm so broke, Humpty Dumpty laughs at me. Well, that's all folks. Blog atcha layta!

Hello Bloggers...

This is my first blog, so I hope that I do this right. I look forward to becoming a regular blogger. Comment please!